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I am done with my LDR. I can’t do it anymore.
i don’t know how to talk to him.
I dreamt I held you in my arms. But when I awoke dear, I was mistaken. So I hung my head and cried. You are my sunshine, my only sunshine. You make me happy when skies are gray. You’ll never know dear, how much I love you. Please don’t take my sunshine away.
I went to Portland to visit my boyfriend of a year and a half. I had to leave on Tuesday to come back. Needless to say I am not doing well. I’m not okay. I miss him. I love him. And I really need to be with him. The night I got home I talked to my mom about moving there. I don’t have anything going for me in this town that I am in. I’m working at a dead end job. I have little friends.
While I was away I missed my mother, my friend, and my cat. That is it. I did not miss “home” one bit. In talking to my mom and a few others about it. I feel like I’m not getting the support and love that I need.
My heart aches. I don’t feel well. I know that as the days and weeks go on that we are apart more that we both will start feeling a little better and that it will get a tiny bit easier.
This time apart needs to go by fast. And when things start falling together I can only hope and pray they fall together the way we want them to, efficiently.
I’m in love, I’m in love, and I don’t care who knows it!
I just want to scream or cry.
i don’t want to be here.
i want/need to be back in portland.
they say home is where the heart is.
he has my heart.
when i’m with him,
i am home.
i wish i had someone…but hes it. hes the only one. there is not a single person other than my mother that will sit and listen to me cry, complain, be happy, be angry, be sad, anything…other than him. hes my heart and soul. and i love him more than anything.
please dear god,
if its not too much to ask…please let things start falling into place quickly..and correctly..thank you..