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Time to take my ambien and smoke and pretend like my life is all just a dream.
and tell everyone to fuck off.
you don’t know me.
you don’t know how i’m feeling.
you don’t know how long i’m going to grieve for.
so do me a favor and just shut the fuck up.
all i want right now, is to be held.
and or cuddle.
just lay in bed and exist.
Nothing like randomly getting sick and throwing up on christmas eve…
i don’t want to be alive anymore..
Why do I feel SO alone…
that is the state i want to be in right now. I have a headache and my eyes hurt from crying. I threw up. I still feel sick…
This is the worst feeling…
I wish I could be there for you, and hold you.
two more months..just keep hanging on.
what a fucked up day.
So I take that bitch in to get it looked at.
Its going to cost over 300 dollars to get it fixed.
And even after they do that its not guaranteed that next month something else isn’t going to fucking happen.
Why? Because they have to rip shit apart to figure out where the hell the leak is coming from.
Fuck that. I am not dropping 300 (ormore) dollars on a car I am not going to be driving that much longer because I am moving to Portland.KTHANKS.
I hate this day.
I would like it to be over.
i wish i had someone to talk to.
I just want to scream or cry.
i don’t want to be here.
i want/need to be back in portland.
they say home is where the heart is.
he has my heart.
when i’m with him,
i am home.
i wish i had someone…but hes it. hes the only one. there is not a single person other than my mother that will sit and listen to me cry, complain, be happy, be angry, be sad, anything…other than him. hes my heart and soul. and i love him more than anything.
please dear god,
if its not too much to ask…please let things start falling into place quickly..and correctly..thank you..